Hate isn't an easy thing to deal with. Especially if the people who did so are not honest with the blind followers and corrupt officers they surround themselves with. They can pretty much say anything and people will assume its true. That is even more likely if no one asked for the alternative story that money went missing prior, they put kids in harms way, and that there has been long stemming mental health issues by the initiators of hate. In other words, the goal never was to understand it was to scapegoat a family for others problems and issues. It was to circumvent accountability.
I have more obligation to ensure that corruption and hate don't get normalized then they do to protect their egos. Yes I do recognize that based in our current political and legal environment that those who are seen as minorities get taken advantaged of, targeted for ethnic cleansing, and will have few to no rights if someone views them as "the other" . I guess in many ways it has been that way ever since I decided to chase a dissertation and live as Muslim (It was supposed to be temporary but I realized you couldn't go back unless you bust the bubble others live in.).
I did the one most horrible thing that any red blooded American could ever dare to do and that is I was so bold as to step into another world and left an old one behind (It just negates everyone's psychological sense of "ego centric "rightness"). The world changed immediately with the horrors on people's face and how quickly they were brought to rage (More about that later). This group began to spread rumors, coordinated hate, take things that didn't belong to them, and all types of sadism took over because they were "justified". In hindsight it was the best thing I could have ever done; I think it had a purpose.
There is much more to this story and I will tell you why I'm against corruption, extremism and no longer care what anyone on this planet thinks of me; they can't judge...not even the judges have familiarity in this realm. I learned things that only a few brave souls are likely to have learned in history (I can only think of a few but none precisely this way. One of my goals was to do the most unique dissertation I could think of. I had few things holding me back) and they are important things that can only come from perspective and cognitive role switching.
(As an example my kids were pulled over 2X and I have been followed home and had a car parked outside my home. The message is pretty clear that people like me are not welcome and we face risks for being there. As a father that is pretty much when I decided I will challenge hate and corruption directly. I did what any father would do trying to protect his kids after I told he perpetrators to keep my kids out of their issues and that was a red line. They crossed that boundary multiple times and used their police associates to help. Feeling frightened for their safety I drew the anger by being outspoken and challenging the larger pre-immune hate oriented self-entitled group that relied heavily on law enforcement as their enforcers {Not what they expected for a "blame the victim" to turn and face them and hold a mirror. Two logical systems as reflective of two different worlds. This was a glimpse of peaking through the curtain. Getting people to put a toe in was challenging.}.
We have all heard of a sandpiper right? {If not spend more time in nature and on the beach.} Their choice was their choice and its telling of natural intent. Likewise, narcissists usually try to dominate weaker personalities. Tell a narcissist "no" when they want something and watch them attack the seemingly weak, different, socially isolated, or injured. The choice to attack and those who blindly followed did so based on a dominant personality that has warped their relationships and objectivity of the people through immediate social vicinity. This is why we should have some checks and balances in place and ensure that police recuse themselves when their friends are involved.
We should have never been put in such a situation because others have failed themselves and their duties. We assumed all the risk, and continue to do so, simply because someone else created us as an exploitable target for their inner turmoil. Not fair! Wrong is wrong and those who accept it are also wrong! Because hate is a dark value it can travel from one arena of life to another and only creates victims until it is challenged and overcome.)
(See I was diagnosed 3X as a highly gifted person with IQ butting against genius {Like 2 IQ points which actually don't matter after 120 much because other personality traits take over. So if your 140 or 160 it can be highly dependent on cultural bias, exposure, education, etc., etc., etc.. One of my kids was also diagnosed as a genius and the other one I'm pretty sure he is a genius based on his interests and association of his discussions. Those are mixed race kids that this group belittled, discounted their lives, and put in harms way. We have a habit of steeling opportunities and putting kids in harm's way for the self needs of others and their bigotries. Black, White or other our children are sacrosanct. Even more so when we have a community that needs leaders and genius contributors we shouldn't put them intentionally in harms way. Not protecting my own offspring would be irresponsible for me, them and the possibilities of what they could become with the right support. If our laws are not designed to protect the next generation from the corruption of the current generation we got a serious break as this generation matures with renewed expectations of freedom and democracy. We need solutions.)
Walking in other's shoes on such a level has only a few examples I found in history and I drew from those examples. They were actually Catholic examples and I maintain a cultural sense of identity to Catholicism but also have accepted Islamic and Jewish principles into my world view (Its possible when you stop focusing on the minute details of difference). I have a truer respect for religion and how they all point to the same place....so I believe there is something universal and more out there that even the brightest minds can't fully comprehend (Its called life logic and a level of an understanding of a bigger system. Because modern science can't see what it can't measure we must have just a little faith to bridge the gap. or maybe not? 🤔).
That is not something I can explain at the moment but I think with extremism rising in this country and corruption becoming fashionable I think it is starting to be good timing to tell parts of the story. Not all parts are for public consumption; that is my right, my oaths and my conscious. Please don't assume the first thing that pops into your head because you could be very wrong. Think not? You can try this Harvard Implicit Word Research to give yourself some self-reflective insight (Remember the word implicit and implicit bias. Also remember social construction for later discussions. ☝)
What I can say is that I switched my dissertation for practical reasons and the need to eventually graduate. However, there was much more I learned over my 20 years as a Muslim that wouldn't fit into a dissertation but parts of it are important for people to learn. That has to do with the very root nature of life and how we as a species create all types of justifications for things that are not rational, just, or fair. It isn't race or religion specific.
A little more information on my beliefs of dissertations and the rise of nationalism. As our world pushes us to change and adapt it is up to us to continue the path of development from one generation to the next and how that creates adaptations (or failure to adapt).
I really should be working on my economic theory of transactional clusters (I didn't invent the whole theory but mine was somewhat independently created and I think it is viable for scalability in Delta County. Once I actually find the time to work on it. Right now I'm just trying to correct an injustice that should be within our legal system.)
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